I’m Lindsey Mathes an intuitive eating Registered Dietitian Nutritionist, on a mission to help individuals make peace with food and their bodies, no matter the size.
For most of my life, food and body image consumed my life.
I grew up in highly critical household where being thin became the only thing I was “good” at, while also serving as my only survival mechanism in a chaotic, dysfunctional home. And what started as dieting and exercise, eventually lead me down the path of eating disorders for many years.
I spent all my energy trying to live up to impossible, perfectionist standards that I believed I needed to obtain in order to feel like I was good enough and accepted; but inside, I was exhausted and emotionally drained.
I was constantly chasing my tail, trying to make up for a binge or being “bad”, while punishing myself with hours of cardio and by depriving myself of food.
“Nothing happens until the pain of remaining the same outweighs the pain of change.”
I finally hit rock bottom when I couldn’t go a day without bingeing or purging. My eating disorders had completely taken over every aspect of my life, and in a desperate attempt to free myself, I took the leap and reached out for help that started me on my path to recovery.
I’m no longer controlled by food and weight. Eating pizza or cookie doesn’t spiral me out of control, followed by days of restriction and self-loathing.
There are no more food rules, fad diets, weighing myself, or counting calories, and I’ve learned to trust in my body to guide me, because it knows exactly what I need.
But, I had to get to a point where I couldn’t take it anymore, and wasn’t going to allow every day of my life to be ruled by what I ate and how much I weighed.
However, it didn’t happen overnight, and it didn’t happen alone. It took patience, compassion, vulnerability, and a willingness to step out of my comfort zone, while exploring all of the underlying emotions and beliefs that kept me stuck.
It took letting go of unattainable (and unrealistic) standards, challenging diet culture, and a desire to feel at peace, instead of obsessing over my body.
It meant confronting my fears about gaining weight, accepting myself for the beautifully flawed human that I am, and practicing self-care.
But my journey never ends.
I’m learning and growing each day, continuing to emerge and heal from a painful past, while continuing to cultivate unconditional self-love and self-compassion, which are the greatest gifts we can give ourselves.
Because at the end of the day, every part of us deserves to be loved and accepted. We are all doing the best we can, with what we’ve been given; and that’s enough.
I believe in…
- Breaking free from the diet mentality
- Freedom from disordered eating patterns and beliefs
- Health at every size and on individual terms
- Trusting in your body’s innate wisdom to guide you
- Practicing self-care and getting your needs met
- Exercise and movement from a place of self-care and enjoyment vs. self-control and punishment
- Spending time and energy on the people and things you love, not food and weight